is it possible to hate so many people? i guess it is coz I sure am realising that i want to curse more and more people each day...this hate in my chest...it feels like its growing from a little germ that grew into a little parasitic worm slowly eating out my heart while i hate people...im afraid that someday, there would be nothing left...maybe then i wouldnt even feel hate anymore...i just wouldnt feel at all. 

sigh, maybe that is better than what i am feeling now....in a word, HORRIBLE...hating someone and then hating myself for hating someone, feeling guilty that I could hate so much.

urgh, i should just work instead of wallowing in this useless feat.  its midnight now and i still haven't done anything remotely useful to help me become a star at work.  okay, pick up your ass florisa! we are going to work!!!!